Stumbling in the Silence

 

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Nirvana, enlightenment, Christ Consciousness, many words used to describe a state of higher consciousness a state of loving all.  Becoming one with all, stepping beyond our own human limits and rising to our spiritual level which has no boundaries.  Measly words created by man can barely describe that of which we know and understand,  trying to use those same words to describe that of which exists only in faith, only within ones self can never convey it to a level of understanding that will come on an intellectual level.  That however is where the fun begins.

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It’s called the “veil”.  Such as the bride who hides behind the veil to only be exposed at the time of unity – the uniting of two to become one.  Same holds true with the “veil” that each of us live behind as a spiritual being living a human experience.  The “veil” only to be dropped when we have reached the unity of oneness with our One Creator.   When we reach the acceptance of Love, that it is not just what we do or how we feel, it is who we are.  Love is all, it’s oneness;  it is the very reason for our existence.

Spirituality has been described as that of which is revealed in the silence when looking within ones self to understand the true message given to mankind throughout the ages in sacred texts. Silence…., who hears anything in the silence, isn’t that in itself contradictory?  Silence is defined as having no audible sound, to hear nothing according to the dictionary.

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Therein lies the challenge, how does one find the silence within?  There’s so much noise today, not just on the outside but within us.  We worry about finances, love, family, health,  politics, we worry about worrying.  Our minds don’t stop long enough to hear silence, we  are constantly thinking about whats next, family, friends, chores, trips,  health and life.  Most of us can’t even hear ourselves speak.

In Greek during biblical days, the word silence meant to keep peace.  Therefore; when one keeps peace within themselves – within the silence, the truth is revealed. Much like the varying definitions of the word silence, each of us will also have varying definitions as it applies to us.  Silence doesn’t always mean a clear, empty mind, sometimes it may just be observed as a peacefulness within.  There is no right or wrong way to reflect upon ones own image, peeling back the layers of what we not only hide from others but hide from ourselves.

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The search within is a catalyst for most, if not all along the spiritual path.  Searching and listening for the silence, waiting for that noticeable change within.  The change begins the minute we opt to pursue the path of spirituality, the minute our mind accepts things aren’t as they seem.  We notice subtle changes in our thought process.  However; for some this is the point that seems to lead to frustration, and for some a hesitation to continue along the path.  A feeling of inferiority, a feeling of failure, these feelings are normal, they are a part of the path.  That is the voice we hear in the silence, its not telling us to condemn and judge ourselves its showing us the areas we must focus on and bring into balance.  We all struggle and stumble within the silence.  Struggle to understand the message, and stumbling by judging our self.   The silence can become stronger when we have no level of expectation, but simply an acceptance and love for our self.  Loving and accepting of ones self is the ultimate catalyst for spiritual growth, without the love of our self how do we love our neighbors as our self?

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Seeking the Truth

Spirituality is much like a newborn baby. First, we  learn to sit up, then crawl, stand, walk, run, and talk. As we become more aware of our thoughts, emotions, actions and the world around us, we begin to grow spiritual, at our own way and pace.

Buddha said, “The past does not exist. The future does not exist.  One should concentrate the mind on the present moment.”

For me,  I always had a connection to nature and felt it was alive and talking to me at a very young age. I grew up in a Christian community, but Religion never really helped me answer questions of who I was, why am I here or where am I going. I could not understand how God could save one group that believed one way and condemn another group that believed another way.  I learned later was man way of control.

By studying other religions, I began to realize religion as a whole, has kept man from truthly seeking God from within. Religion has humanity believing  you have to be in a tribe or group in order to find God. Reported  Near Death experiences and stories from Children about reincarnation also provided a great deal of insight.

images (27)My first real discovery was  The Gospel of Thomas, labeled as a Gnostic text,  was 114 saying of Jesus, left out of the new testament as well as other texts. The Discovery was made in 1945 in Egypt and now can be found  in the Nag Hammadi Library . It first became available to the public in 1975.    The “living Jesus” in these tests speaks of illusion and enlightenment not of sin and repentance like Jesus of the new testament. Jesus teaching were much deeper than what we were taught. Instead of coming to save us from sin, he comes as a guide and messenger who opens access to spiritual understanding, much like Buddha and Lao Tzu. Verse 50 in the Gospel of Thomas,  Jesus said,  “ If they ask you “Where are you from?” reply to them “We have come from the place where light is produced from itself. It came and revealed itself in their image.”  If they ask you “Are you it?” reply to them, “We are his sons. We are chosen ones of the living father.”  If they ask you “What is the sign within you of your father?” reply to them, Have “It is movement. It is rest.”

Then I discovered the Law of One, an event that occurred from 1981 to 1984 and again speaks of  love and light.  It put Jesus’ message in prospective, revealing our purpose of existence and the consequences of our behavior. It shares some of the same concepts we learned in our religious systems, but in a more metaphysical, scientific, and complex vocabulary. More importantly it put everything into perspective. The Infinite Intelligence or Creator is pure energy encompassing all. mistic46_00_small

Have each of us been chosen to be here  at this time and place?  Is our purpose to raise the planet vibration of love and light and if so how?  Love others as you would love yourself and being of service to others. We all have higher entities as guides trying to communicate with those who are seeking the truth, just as Jesus said, seek and you shall find.

Different translations of the Gospel of Thomas can be found at Gnostic.Org . In addition  Scott Mandelker PhD. has  34 videos including the Gospel of Thomas in an Introduction to Gnostic Studies playlist will provide the seeker with additional insight.